I worked with Mas Sajady for about four years and had some strange
experiences. I never talked about them because I thought it only happened to
me.
However, people have come forward recently with their Mas
Sajady experiences that are extremely similar to mine. I know their struggles
are real and I feel their pain...I was exactly where they are or were with only
one difference -- I saw the truth of the situation but they believed the lie.
My life has flourished in every way possible since the experience, yet theirs
have sunken into darkness.
My abundance is the proof that I saw the undeniable truth
about this Mas Sajady experience. I realize that many people might be facing
the same challenge right now and even more will be in the future. The truth
will set them free so here is my story:
I just had to write about this amazing revelation that happened to me when I worked with Mas Sajady.
The
Background
At 6 years
old my violent stepfather began to have sex with me on a regular basis. My
brother and mother were beaten weekly sometimes daily. It was a brutal time.
From
around 9 until the age of about 16 off and on in the middle of the night I
awoke to a dripping, oozing monster sitting above my bedroom door. I would pull
the covers over my head to hide from it, wait, and peek out over and over until
it was gone then I would get out of bed and run out my door and go sleep in the
hallway.
After the
age of 16 the monster turned into an invisible energy/entity that would attack
me in my sleep. I would wake up in a state of paralysis and not be able to
scream or move a single muscle in my body even if someone was sleeping next to
me. It could last 10 to 15 minutes. I always had dreams of being hunted and
running for my life, I hated dreaming.
This
continued until I was about 28 years old when a Native American man did a
ceremony (what Mas Sajady later called a "work-around") and it did
not return again until I was about 36 when it returned as a blue lizard/serpent
with scales. When I closed my eyes it would just be staring at me. It scared me
so bad I had to go stay at a friend's house. I was terrified to sleep.
These were
things I never talked about, until I asked Mas Sajady to help me, because this
ongoing nightmare seemed unbelievable, and I just "lived" with them.
Let's fast
forward past broken relationships, friendships, alcoholism, to feeling
exhausted by life.
The
Seeking
I was
raised Christian and went to church regularly as a youth. When I became a young
adult, I felt a restless calling for a deeper understanding of God.
I read
Jonathan Livingston Seagull. I knew I was that single seagull and there was
something more. I was willing to leave the flock, on my own, in search of it.
I wanted
the strength to stand solid when facing evil and not cower in fear. They
weren't really teaching this at church. I wanted a real solution to the fear I
was living with, i.e. the "night terrors," because all those prayers
weren't doing the trick.
I began
reading books, attending seminars. I lived with the Sioux Indians seeking
wisdom. I meditated eight hours a day and tried to become a monk. I attended
"New Age" spiritual
churches and functions. I saw healers, psychics and therapists. I tried Reiki,
hypnosis and a host of alternative methods to dissolve patterns. I travelled to
Egypt to stand in the sacred pyramids. I travelled to Jerusalem and prayed where
Jesus was born. I travelled to Machu Picchu and prayed on top of the mountain.
All with
the hope of enlightenment and discovering the ultimate technique to overcome
patterns and fears and find happiness and answers.
Now at 48
my physical body was beginning to break down. It was getting harder for me to
walk, and I was so tired all of the time. Doctors had no answers. When I spoke
to healers or psychics, they would say "Oh, you're such a bright light,
bla bla bla," or something like that.
I decided
there was no "real" answer. It didn't exist. I did not want to read
any more books, travel to any additional sacred sites nor consult any more
gurus or healers. I was over it. They all left me wanting.
In an
interesting turn of events I was invited to a Mas Sajady live event weekend
seminar in Los Angeles. It was his first public seminar. I had no desire or
intention to go, but somehow I ended up there.
The
conference room was packed when I arrived. I saw this humble man sitting at the
front taking questions from the attendees.
Mas Sajady
is not what you expect. He does not exhibit the typical persona of a
"gifted" person. He does not speak to people as if he has all the
answers or is above them. You do not feel like he is smarter or better than
you. Mas Sajady has a genuine desire to help people and he works tirelessly at
his events to do so. Mas is like the guy next door. A very nice, safe, gentle
man, father of 6 children from Minnesota that was gifted with a remarkable
ability after two near death experiences.
I remember
Mas did not even know the standard "new age" terminology that every
one of the attendees did. He was so refreshing. This was appealing to me. I had
been around so-called gurus, healers and New Age spiritualists. There was always a "costume" or an "ego"
element, or a sense that they wanted devotion. None of this is present with Mas
Sajady.
I began
listening to what Mas was saying, and my ears began to perk up. I had read
everything and been everywhere. Finally, here was a man saying things I had thought,
deduced, and craved but never heard anyone say. I realized I could ask Mas
Sajady any question, and he would give me an answer. I was intrigued.
The Light
Mas Sajady
worked on me that day at his first seminar in Los Angeles years ago. I could
feel his energy, before Mas got to me, as he went from one person to the next.
He gave everyone in the room a one-on-one session. His energy was very light
and clean.
What Mas
Sajady said to me, in that first one-on-one experience, I knew instantly he
really could see through the veil. He was the first person ever, first
"healer/psychic type" person, that explained so clearly to me what
was happening to my physical body, and the night terrors. And I knew in my
heart that was it. When you hear truth you know it.
My
lifetime of searching had paid off. After just a couple sessions with Mas Sajady
I was physically better and my life was changed for the better. Mas told
me I didn't need to see him anymore.
Despite
that instruction, over the next four years I attended several three-day
seminars and participated in many 21-day Medihealings led by Mas Sajady. My life and awareness continued to evolve in
every area.
One of the
keystones to spiritual strength that Mas Sajady speaks about relates to balance
between the worlds of good and evil. He
talks about not existing too far into the light/good or too far into
darkness/evil, but maintain the middle road between them both. And Mas Sajady reviews that while attempting
to live in a balanced energy, darkness will do everything in its power to push
us back into the illusion, sleep, or whatever one calls “not being present.”
A tool Mas
Sajady suggests that aids people in the ability to stay present is to use the
mantra "How can I connect to Pure Source even stronger?" Another
tool is to ask in any situation with any person, place or thing "Are you
of Pure Source?"
And to
stay in your body and get present; simply focus on your spine. Just the thought
of your spine will keep you present and alert in your body. Mas Sajady reviews
this is especially useful in stressful situations so you act or choose from
conscious awareness.
All of
these tools I use and they are powerful.
My
original quest was to be able to face evil and not cower. Evil can come in
zillions of forms not just monsters in the night. It can come in the form of
self-abuse, rape, subtle abuse from family members or employers, societies,
etc. The list is long.
The
Darkness
My evil
stepfather raped me from the age of 6 to 16. After decades of not hearing from
him, he called me out of the blue. The first time I answered the phone I felt
the familiar tight nervous knot in my body. I felt myself responding to the
habit of talking to him like a trained monkey. I hated this.
He began
to call me every Sunday. I spoke to him when he called. Each time I kept
thinking to myself, next time I am going to tell him to stop calling but for
some reason I could never speak the words.
It was
like the invisible energy that came to me my whole life. It was a whole bag of
mixed emotions: sexual sensations, tightness, failure, powerlessness, control
issues, fear, and weakness.
After
about two or three months of this, one Sunday I noticed that a couple Sundays
had passed with no phone call. I was glad, but at the same time I felt like a
failure, because I had failed in facing evil and saying no.
Soon after
he stopped calling, at some point in the evening hours, I began sensing an
invisible energy in my home, like a form without a form. An energy/presence
that I knew was there.
My senses
and the thoughts or the words in my head told me it was Mas Sajady. Was it
Mas's spirit travelling to my space?
When I
sensed the presence of this energy, my head flooded with words, as if it was
talking to me in my mind. I heard words and felt I was being seduced. The
energy was very seductive. I felt my ego inflate. This Mas-like energy was
urging me to let his energy merge with mine in an energetic encounter.
The
feelings were so desirable. It would have been so easy to just go with it and
let it happen. I had been trained by my stepfather to be seduced and not
resist, have no boundaries. It felt like when you're trying to stay awake but
your body wants to sleep, it's really hard to keep your thinking mind.
I did not
know why this was happening to me. My mind or my heart, I don't know which,
argued with the sensations my body was feeling. The reason I know it was NOT
Mas Sajady is because not one-time in all my personal interactions with Mas
Sajady, in all the times Mas had worked on me in one-on-one sessions or his
live events, did I ever feel this density, these base feelings, that this
energy caused.
Around the
Real Mas Sajady my mind usually goes blank. I can barely remember the questions
I want to ask, they seem so trivial. The real Mas Sajady energy, in person, is
light and clean, so light it's almost not there.
I stated
the mantra "How can I connect to Pure Source even stronger?" And
after several minutes, this energy went away. It took me several minutes to
calm down. It was disturbing. This occurred many times over a period of about
three weeks.
Each time
this energy appeared, a part of me knew that if I stepped into the illusion and
experienced this merging of energy, no matter how enticing that feeling of
seduction was, there would be no turning back on some level. I would be
crossing a line, and I would feel shame, and I would never be able to look Mas Sajady
in the face again. The temptation felt dishonest, dense, and dark. What an odd
thing to think. Very odd thoughts to have, but this is what I experienced.
I
continued to refuse to allow the energy to merge with me. I rejected it each
time it came. It became easier to reject it as I felt a strength was growing in
me. It began to dissipate faster each time as well. I felt myself stronger each
time, not stronger like emotional but stronger on a spiritual level.
Finally it
stopped coming.
In
retrospect, this strange Fake Mas Sajady energy began coming at around the same
time my evil rapist stepfather stopped calling.
During this whole episode, my evil rapist stepfather never called one
time. I think this is significant.
Soon after
the Fake Mas Sajady energy ceased coming, my phone rang one day. I remember
looking at my phone and seeing my stepfather's name flashing. Like a rubber
band I answered.
I said
"hello." He stated abruptly, "I wish I lived near you so I
could come over and make love to you."
It was
like a lightning bolt. He had never spoken so pointedly before. The feeling I
felt in my body was the most powerful sexual charge I have ever felt, like an
arrow that lit up every cell. It was absolutely irresistible. Immediately I was
trembling.
So much
happened in those next few seconds before I spoke. Time slowed down like a
slow-motion movie, while I saw my options: to immerse myself in the familiar
irresistible feelings or reject them. In that moment I could hear my breath. I
could hear the air. I was able to see everything so clearly. I was present.
Understanding
everything all of a sudden, I chuckled and said, "You can't talk to me
like that anymore. It's not okay." I hung up.
I have not
heard from him since nor has that presence of Fake Mas Sajady returned.
The
Revelation
When I was
a 5 year old child, I had a dream of two doorways at the top of a single
staircase. I walked up the stairs and the door on the left opened. The room,
the energy, the colors, the feeling was like music swaying to a rhythm almost
in a dance, and all so very seductive. Enchanted, it easily drew me towards it.
The good
looking man that had opened the left door was smiling and waving me in. Without
hesitation I took one step into the room when all of a sudden behind me the
right door opened. My grandmother charged out screaming "Nooooo" as
she grabbed my arm and yanked me into her room in a gust of wind like a
tornado.
As I
turned back around towards the handsome smiling man in the left room he turned
into the "devil." No joke.
Just a
dream?
I believe,
without a shadow of a doubt, from the dream when I was a little girl and had to
choose between the two doors at the top of staircase (good and evil), that the devil that showed itself in my dreams infiltrated
my stepfather. It raped my childhood. It
came to me in night terrors and dreams throughout my life. And, finally, as a
last ditch effort to keep me bound, it cloaked itself and came to me feeling like
Mas Sajady, someone I trusted, to trick me. But this time, I was not seduced by
it like when I was 5 years old.
As I hung
up the phone with my stepfather, my breathing was still very fast. The
lightning bolt that shot through the phone into my heart had been a direct hit.
My heart was pounding. Immediately I knew I had just slayed a dragon, a demon.
Energetically I had faced evil head on, unafraid and won. My stepfather was
just a pawn doing its bidding.
Soon after,
I felt lighter than ever as if shackles had left my being. It was a very hard
test to pass to get to the next level of enlightenment I attained. The pathway
was narrow. I didn't know it was coming, it just was there. No warning. But I
was ready for it, and the tools I learned from Mas Sajady helped me succeed.
I know I
have passed to a new level. I know I am stronger. I know that dark entity is
never coming back. Since then and working with Mas Sajady, my life has
blossomed with a 360 degree awareness I could never have imagined.
